do they know it's christmas time?

ever been struck with the feeling that ur heart is screaming but the rest of u remains silent cos u harbor a deep secret in ur heart that no one else must know about?

christmas is coming in less than 2 days. a time earthlings celebrate the birth of a savior... no, THE savior. he's chosen to descend to earth and stretch out nailscarred hands to rescue his people. so for those of u celebrating love, joy and peace, it's reali achievable, onli a prayer away..

i'm ok, at least i will be eventually... get many bouts of depression and cry very very often. i deserve all this... it's my choice, but i cant help feeling sad n lost... i dun want to tell cos i dont need ur pity. so pls... if u're fren enough with me, u wil noe how to b my fren and not shower me with sympathy, if u dun, then jus pray for me... u showing me sympathy wil jus make me feel worse. reali.

my first lonely christmas. i miss u...